oki doki well I decided to keep this one hah cause no one over here knows it exists woo-hoo lol Mia had commented on how hot brian was on my tilly xanga.....and his ex saw it....and ya well umm I'm not gonna write in that one nemore, hah, I don't want any more fights.  Ummm well shit it's been a very long time since I wrote in here.....ummm we had try outs and I made freshmen! yay go chragers....but my 2 great friends that tried out got rejected so that wasn't the best news.  Ummmmmmm o ya, some girl named Carolyn Johnson is on my squad, she used to live in korea for 5th and 6th...it was so kewl cause we were able to talk about the same people we knew from korea and stuff.  Ummm only 11 of the freshmen that tried out made it, so we're gonna have tryouts again in the beggining of skewl.....and our first game is next the 4th! yes! hah I'm so excited! and we get our uniforms today.  WE HAVE 4 UNIFORMS!  I was like holy fuq I only thought we only had 1 lol and last night all the parents weren't talking cause they were spending over 500 bucks we emptied out their pockets all right.  well we actually have 5, but we're gonna give one of the uniforms to the salvation army.  we have pictures on saturday so we get our uniforms today!  I heard they were really kyoot form the upper classmen, but it's not fair...they get haulters! hah well one day i'll get them so no biggy.  ummm ya well one of our uniforms has straight skirts....soo kute, but you cnat tumble in those.  We're taking team pictures too and they'll put the pic on the skewls website later in the year.  ok well I g2g get ready, we have this us tumblers camp tonight, and he's gonna bust our asses, u dumbass football players think u have it tough.....u really haven't seen what us girls put up with either. 

ALL DONE startin alll ova

well....it's about 12:14 in the afternoon...and soo much happened last night.  My greatgrandfather died lastnight.......he was 98, I wish he could have made it to 100.  Well we didn't find out about him until this morning.  My grandmother had a heart attack last night though...shes in the hospital right now.........she has to have some kind of surgery, I dunno I can't pronounce it, my dads the only one in the family that can say nething medical.  Last night Mike ( her husband ) called my cell because he didn't know our home phone or my rents cell #....he didn't tell me why he was calling though cause he wanted my mom to know first.  I think the camping trip might be cancelled because this is her second heart attack, and my mom and I want to go and be with her.  She's like one of the only adults I can actuallly talk to...I don't want to loose her.  I remember when I was 5 I was over there in texas and I would always play with her wedding ring....so she told me that when she died that it would be my ring.....I DON"T WANT IT NOW, cause if I do get it, then that will mean that shes gone, and I DONT WANT THAT.  I want to see her so bad.  None of us have gotten to talk to her yet......I talked to her on tuesday......but she was fine then.  I want to go there and live with her so I can take care of her cause her husband isn't doing shit.  I had a dream last night that my dads mom and dad died.......and in that dream I wasn't even crying.  I don't even know them very well.  All I know is they're both drunks and my grandpa treated his whole family like shit, THAT GREEDY BASTARD, I would never cry for him NEVER.  NOw that he has all his damn fuqing money he has no use for it...he's too old, he put my dad, my uncle, my grandmother, through hell all their lives just b/c he only cared about money.  I hate my grandmother too........but I really shouldn't.....it's not her fault.  She really is mentally ill.  You cna't notice it.......but like sometimes if you've been with her too long...........you notice that she kind of acts like a child.  I really would miss my dads parents...but not as much as my moms mommy.  I've never met her daddy...he's somewhere in thaiwan with another son, and another wife.  I think my grandma should dump mike and come live with me.  She can have my brothers room and he can sleep on the couch.  GAWD I WANT TOP SEE HER NOW! shes the only other relative I really care about other then my immediate family.  I don't want her ring, I want her!

today was FUN! I got to see everyone else that didn't come to L4 and ketsup...yay! o and I got to call mary claire and ugly ho....she used to be pretty, now she looks like a dog.  Well I hate her newayz, BITCH!  and I got to yell at Stephanie! hahaha yay! hmmm and my parents want to go camping again...on sunday to like wednesday maybe, and Jeff is tryin to see if he nd stephen could come.......that would SO KICK ASS! ahhhh the best days of my summer! well newayz I saw my pot smoker today...well both of them.  dude, chris just bought a 1.5 million dollar home, an he has a naked mermaid in his room! hah nd his pool is sooooo freezing.  DUDE nick said his dick got frost bite it was that cold.  Man....this is so sad.  I jus realized that all my friends that were girls like.....got on my nerves when I moved so now I hate them. LOL all my friends are guys! well I think I get along w/ guys better, just b/c I'm a crazy ass ya well after cris's house we went to zachs and messed around on his trampoline.....HAHAH eric broke one of the springs! o and I said hey to joy, my first girlfriend! hah the only one today! but dude, today could not have been nebetter, my old buddys! ok NEWAYZ! we went swimming at cottentail, nd when alex saw me he didn't know what to think. I went up to him and introduced myself as mellissa...he was like o really, u look like this girl ashley i used to like! hhaah that stuopid tard! h mmmmmmm oh and greg is a freakin bubble but though, and he looks like a damn man.  very very hairy legs. GAWD I WISH ANDREW WAS HERE! RIGHT NOW! ok random thought......o and I ate all of zachs ice cream.  Then we went to the jewish boys house.....jacob I think..man I was so mean to him! and I had to pee like a thousand times today I saw a snake, a rabbit, and 2 yellow butterflys "doing it" hahha accordng to nick that trash bag! haha.  hmmm JEFF I WANT TO SEE YOU AGAIN! NEED TO TALK! NOWWWWWW! hmm ight wel i hope u can take those hunting lessons soon, and come camping too! ight I gotsta go! luv yoo andrew...hmm did I ever cal you andy?

love forever and ever

ashley